temptress_hope

The everyday repetition has started to take hold. The months are changing and I am in the same place day after day. The mindless rules and corporate America bullshit baffles my mind. The other day I went into one of my favorite restaurants and I my head started naming prices of the pictures on the walls. The point is that everything I do has to be done some one else’s way. I feel that my independent thought has been taken away from me and ten other people have waltzed into my brain and taken over. This same idea has affected my relationships as well. I feel that I don’t even know what traits I’m attracted to anymore. Most of all I feel like I have very little time to be myself. My friends are the only people I can actually get close to without the fear of getting to close or the need to push them away. It is them I am thankful for. Kendall Matt and Adam, Soto& the sharp edge crew (whenever I do see you guys), Hodges, Lauren & Nate, Private Holder, Gerrard, Katrina, Matt & Star, and my pretty pretty princess Molly are the people I rely on to help me feel that what ever stupid decision I have made at that moment is alright. They make me laugh and help me bitch so thank you guys! You’ve made the everyday hell a pretty kick ass place.